Weekend & Such: My First Blog

It's another Sunday night/Monday morning and i'm still awake.  Been kinda reclusive today; wrapped up inside of myself and longing for some headspace.  To think, to dream, to do what needs to be done.  i'm just...i don't know what i am; i'm just a bit sad.

Isn't it funny how all blogging begins with sadness?  That everything seems to revolve around being down in the dumps...it all starts out sad, then gets better...right?

i'll write what i feel and how i feel and maybe get it all out of me.  what's in my head is jumbled and its hard to hold on to one single thought.  Check that.  The easiest thing to latch onto is "Why?"  Why do i feel this way, and how do i make it stop?  Not in the sense of ending it all, because, as i've said several times, that's an easy out and it doesn't solve anything.

How do i not feel this way anymore?  Knowledge comes with time, so I'll end for now.  First blog out and i hope you like what you see.  If not...fuck it then, right?  i am who i am and my thoughts are mine - you don't have to agree with me.

It's all...mine.

THE AC

One last thing...Zack's returned state-side...i am waiting to be thrilled about that.  i'm happy to see him, i just feel like...not the same as before.